Wednesday, April 04, 2007
yah! it's true!! hehh. as in, wht ashley tagged...... is true!! =)
............i don't kno wh-hat to saaayyy.....!!! =( ='(
1) i actually.... 'm supposed to start research.... now.. so tht i can quickly start to develop ideas easily..... which is needed rather soon.. of course; but, who cares??
2) uhm.... actually i'm pretty PROUD of my, uhh, reply to the past Application Question tht my class were given to respond to through MI Link. all sorts of grades were given. i, for one, got a B+, yay!!! oki, wait, why'm i telling you people..???
oh, i kno why. i'm showing off, though ther's actually NOTHing to show off;' it's not even an A! but tht's my reason nonetheless; b'cause i very very so very rarely get tht grade for any things relating to General Paper; can?
actually i woULd post in here both the AQ 'n my reply(only) to it.... bU-ut, it's totaly inappropriate 'n would definitly put you people to sleep, like, immediately, 'n then i would lose my audience, if i haven't alredy.... soo, yah. shall not do tht. =)
3) lately, alot of, uhm, stories happening, relating to Friendships And Such. not happening to me directly, but mor of to people aROund me, thus affecting me, as well, in ways i gues. [or maybe i'm just over-feeling it but whtever] i mention this 'cause things like this don't always happen, as in, in this smaller scope.... but, why DO they happen..?? 'n they happen, like, one stupid incident/problem after another, very consecutively.. thus making things almost totally impossibly difficult 'n unsolvable for certain people. why??
people reading this, don't, lik, terasa oki..? b'cause, it mayn't necessarily be abOut you.. hehh. =) i mean, i mentioned "alot of stories happening" so i literally mean "A Lot", as in mor than one. yah.
ok. here comes a different point. caution; do not get confused.
i'v come to realise tht.... people can be really really rEally different, 'n i will take almost too long to realise, somtimes i'd think it's probably alredy too late.
when people talk TO me, they obviously want a listening ear, right? so i listen 'n listen 'n listen. that's fine, i'm pretty good at tht.
bUt, for som people, after i'v listened to them, they expect it be MY turn to talk tO thEM, so now it's thEIr turn to listen, right? but somtimes, i just don't get the "hint", so i really don't respond, thus giving the impression tht i'm being "unfriendly" or "secretive" or "unwilling to tell" or somtimes it may even cross their mind tht they'r not in that "special position" to be mY listening ear. ['n disappointment occurs or wht i wLdN't kno] EVEN THOUGH THAT REALLY MAY NOT BE TRUE. so then what happens? it becoms too late for me to change tht one little thing in their mind, unless i'm given another chance to prove otherwise.
for som OTHer people, after i'v listened to them, they DO NOT expect it be MY turn to talk to thEM, like, share stuffs 'bout myself, AT ALL, like, completely, get the picture? so, the problem here is, it's when i'm with thESe people, i'd feel lik telling things, oki? so, it's thESe people, tht i end up talking TO. so, while telling them stuffs, i'd not get any attention, or any listening ear at all, not even One, so my story(ies) wldn't b complete, ther'd be distractions 'n stuffs, so, i end up feeling like a fool, 'n.... yah. not a very nice feeling.
maybe, i'm just stupid. such tht i cn't even differentiate b'tween these 2 types of people, such tht i keep responding the wrong way, such tht, you kno how.
or maybe i don't even kno wh-haat the heck i'm tryna analyse here. my mind's drifting away from my point sooo....
so. now. i'v known to, uhh, iDEntify who's who 'n who's not.. but it stil suckx you kno? 'cause i took too long to realise who i shld'v been talking stuffs to, 'n who i shldN't'v been talking stuffs to.
o no, i forgot my point.
DAMN!! is this how it's gon be for when i'm sitting for my paper(s) ??
gee, why'm i asking? hasn't that aLWays been the case for me??
5:15 pm and hani went off; embarrassed .
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